every which way

after so much beauty and strength in yesterday’s draw, today’s card initially feels a little discouraging: the five of wands.

five-of-wandsthese wands are laying haphazardly, each pointing in a different direction, with none of them touching or overlapping. the lines behind them reflect the chaos, moving in hard angles and with erratic spacing. all of this suggests a complete lack of focus, confusion, distraction – the eye wanders, unsure of where to look. rather than working together to move in one direction, they seem to be fighting each other, defensive and contrary.

i’ve been enjoying pushing myself in different directions in my photography, but it can also bring up worries about talent, ability, and stretching myself too thin. am i good enough to try all of these styles and specialties? can i make a living doing all the things i like, or do i have to choose just one? this field is so competitive, and with everyone posting images every single day from their cell phones, some good and some downright terrible, it’s impossible not to feel threatened or like i have to prove my worth and value every day.

daughter-of-cupsi pulled a clarifying card to offer additional guidance, and found an old friend: the daughter of cups. and while she can represent many things, in this context i see her quiet confidence in the full spectrum of the suit of cups. she knows that water can be clear or murky or choppy or still, bright and illuminating or dark and mysterious. even when she doesn’t understand every facet of herself, she still trusts that every emotion has value, and believes in her own instincts. knowing that she doesn’t know everything does not bother her – she finds it comforting that there is much she does not understand. there is power in wonder, in the unknown.

confusion is not always bad, as it forces us to focus on what matters. and second-guessing my career choices doesn’t make me weak, as long as i don’t allow it to stall or consume me. but these cards feel like they’re pushing me to rise to a challenge, rather than give in to distraction and fear. i am capable of riding out these difficulties, as beth from little red tarot says. this tension can make me stronger.

 

one step at a time

after reading through a beautiful, in-depth reading from one of my favorite tarot readers, i’ve had a lot to consider this morning. it can be hard sometimes to take all of the information and insight from a larger spread and find ways to break it down into more manageable steps, to know where to go or how to begin. today’s card is a lovely reminder that we are all students: the daughter of cups.

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it’s no secret that i love this card, and all she represents: the eager innocence of the page, the tranquil, quiet spirit of the cups, the depth of emotions present in water, and the ability and desire to see all the beauty and range of her suit. there’s such hope here, an optimism and brightness and appreciation that i don’t always see in tarot. she may not have all the answers but she’s ready to find them, longing to hear the messages that the water holds for her.

after pulling the mother of cups just yesterday, and seeing the high priestess (who’s also my birth card) in a larger personal spread earlier today, this is such a sweet reminder that we all have to start somewhere. i do trust my intuition, and have even before i starting reading tarot, but exploring these cards and trying to understand them has given me an even greater appreciation for natural instincts, empathy, and the power of quiet.

and while i’d love to be the mother of cups or the high priestess, fully aware of my personal power and confident in my abilities as an intuitive presence, i’m still at the beginning of my journey. this daughter may be young, may not have as much experience or knowledge as her older, wiser family members, but she plays an important role in the court: she reminds us to keep searching, to keep being curious, to keep pulling back layers to see what lies at the heart of what matters.

sometimes not being afraid to ask questions, letting go of looking foolish, and simply embracing our role as a student is one of the most powerful actions we can take. there can be fear in the unknown, but there is such powerful freedom there too. the truth will find me eventually, and until then, i need to be kind and gentle to myself, and remember that the answers will come when it’s the right time.

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my girl

today’s daily reading is a card i’ve been anticipating diving into: the daughter of cups, and the namesake for this blog. she’s not who i am, she’s my goal girl. she’s my fantasy girl. she’s the girl i hope to someday become, on my magical intuitive journey to be queen of the universe or high priestess of the emotional realm or whatever.

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this lovely baby swan is resting serenely in still waters, gazing off into the distance, calmly paddling below but careful not to disturb the quiet. she’s lost in the world of her emotions and imagination, quietly casting a rainbow reflection onto the surface. she is graceful, calm, innocent, beautiful. she personifies stillness, harmony, and peace. she is a child of the court of cups, eager to learn, celebrating her emotions, testing the waters of her intuition. she revels in her creativity, lives for her art, struggles to stay grounded in reality. she is just beginning to understand the power of emotional strength, the importance of the full spectrum of feelings, the strength it takes to keep an open mind and heart.

in readings, the daughter of cups reminds us that we have much to learn about our personal emotional landscapes. having feelings is not bad – learning from our emotions makes us strong, intelligent, nuanced creatures. we need to embrace our emotions, keep our hearts open, and not judge ourselves for our reactions and needs. i always love to see this card, as she serves as a gentle reminder that i have much to learn about myself, but i’ve begun the journey.

let’s be clear – this girl is not me. i am absolutely not the daughter of cups. realistically, i daughtershave far more in common with the daughter of swords, or the daughter of wands. and in readings, i’m far more likely to get a mother than a daughter in positions that represent myself. i’m passionate, can be difficult, am often stubborn, and tend towards being secretive. i’m fiercely loyal, and while i’m not great at standing up for myself, i will do anything to protect the people i love. i’m practical, and sarcastic, and usually pretty cranky. i’m independent, and introverted, and inquisitive.

but cups represent water, and emotions, and intuition. and i’ve said it before, but as a
scorpio i identify strongly with the suit of cups. i may not share her grace and beauty, her kindness, or her innocence, but i feel strongly that the daughter of cups can teach us much about our emotions, and that the hidden depths within each of us can be the most significant pieces we have to offer. i value my intuition highly, and strive to develop it more and more each day. i want to be more sensitive, more kind, more generous. i want to become the daughter of cups so that i can grow into the mother of cups, and perhaps someday fully develop into my birth card, the high priestess.

i have so much to learn, but we all have to start somewhere.